Christie - Bristol

One phrase I would hear daily in my office job when bringing out my pre made salad and healthy snacks was, ‘oh you’re so good’, or if I was seen eating a ‘bad’ food the comments would be, ‘oh you’re so lucky, you can eat what you want’.

Ask Christie...

What has been your lived experience of diet/judgement culture?

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been extremely self-conscious about my body. As a child and early teens I used to wear really baggy clothes and felt very exposed if any of my skin was showing.

As I got older, I would only brave tighter clothes or show skin after consuming large quantities of alcohol! 
Even today, parts of me still feel uncomfortable in my skin – it fluctuates - but more lately, I have been feeling confident in myself... as I am.

I’ve been labelled by others as many things; fat, thin, skinny, curvy, chubby, chunky, fit, broad, sturdy, having body dysmorphia. 
I’ve yo-yo’d for years and experienced many things; over/undereating, secret eating, binge eating, zero carbs, zero sugar, juice diets, fasting, some weird gel detox pyramid scheme thing, calorie counting, macro counting, attempting to throw up after meals. I joined SW and got judged many times, ‘what are you here for?’

One phrase I would hear daily in my office job when bringing out my pre made salad and healthy snacks was, ‘oh you’re so good’, or if I was seen eating a ‘bad’ food the comments would be, ‘oh you’re so lucky, you can eat what you want’. 

All of this felt extremely uncomfortable about these comments, i felt guilty, shameful and self-conscious about my healthy choices. I felt like I had to keep up this ‘good’ reputation, so would put more pressure on myself to ‘be slim’, train harder at the gym and be really hard on myself for binge eating – which happened a lot.

Everything I tried was all an attempt to ‘get skinny’. For my whole life I was holding this unconscious and unhelpful story that, ‘If I’m skinny, then I’ll be happy with myself’. But even reaching this perceived ‘skinny’ goal, I still did not feel ‘enough’.

What made you decide to facilitate for Nutriri?

I met Helen through a FreeMind transformation programme. I am a big fan of Helen and very inspired by what she is bringing to the world with Nutriri and generally as a human being!

Having done a lot of healing myself through FreeMind techniques, I am seeing for myself that self-love really is the key to happiness. Happiness has to come from within and not by chasing an external goal. This is what Nutriri is all about; self-compassion and loving ourselves as we are. I agree with this completely.

I’ve had to face a lot of my own demons. Joining Nutriri is an opportunity for me to continue strengthening my relationship with myself with the help and support of incredible, likeminded people. Sharing and having real conversations about body challenges. Bringing all the shameful and fearful thoughts to light and meeting them all with kindness and compassion – its amazing!!

What are your future hopes?

  • Self-loathing and critical judgements to one another are a thing of the past.
  • Body shaming and trolling online is illegal.
  • We are living in a world where self-love and self-nurture is a way of life.
  • Nutriri’s movement is a global sensation and has won prestigious awards!

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