"Finding Pilates and now teaching it has helped me develop an appreciation of what my body can do and helped me feel so much more comfortable in my own skin."
What was your lived experience of diet/judgement culture?
As a child and a teenager I hated my body and felt paranoid about my shape. I was covered in acne, wore very thick glasses and was teased mercilessly at school about how I looked.
From my 20’s onwards, my body changed greatly through medication for multiple health conditions. I rapidly went from a size 8 to a size 20 in 6 months. From then on, all I could think about was food and feeling ashamed of my body.
How did medication and multiple health conditions effect you?
Ehlers Danlos Syndrome and Chronic Fatigue impacted on my life massively. I was always in pain, always beyond exhausted and I spent hours in bed feeling depressed. Food was a comfort to me. When I was upset, or tired, or happy, or any other emotion I could think of, I used food as a comfort or a reward.
I spent years knowing some foods weren’t doing me much good and that my health could improve if I cut them out, that my pain would be reduced, I’d be more mobile. My parents, doctors, partners kept reminding me of this but it just made me feel worse.
I tried so many diets and punished myself with exercise. Yo-yo’ing and feeling more and more alone. I thought I was the only person feeling like this and struggling. I felt a lot of shame and at times I even contemplated suicide. My own mind and the way I spoke to myself were my biggest bullies and they were making things worse.
I know this paints a very bleak picture but maybe it isn’t a story you are unfamiliar with if you are reading this now.
Finding Pilates and now teaching it has helped me develop an appreciation of what my body can do and helped me feel so much more comfortable in my own skin. At times my stomach has got in the way of some of the moves but with adaptations I was able to progress and reap all the benefits of a stronger, less painful body… that can move!
With my experience in running accessible Pilates classes, I can help to re-introduce safe, enjoyable exercise; where we don’t feel like we are punishing ourselves and we actually look forward to each session.
Finding Nutriri and learning about compassionate acceptance has enabled ease to finally wear a bikini, I don’t feel ashamed of my body. I was; and now not considering surgery to remove excess skin. I eat food that I know doesn’t increase inflammation. My cravings have reduced and binging isn’t a coping mechanism any more.
This is why I became a Nutriri facilitator, to help others move on from constantly thinking about food and body image. To create a safe and supportive space with no more body and eating shame.
Nutriri and Mobilates are proving to be a very effective and successful combination that’s helping to create a group of body confident people.