"Acceptance is really natural to me… maybe that’s the disabled, nerdy lesbian in me that hates seeing people ostracised or discriminated against"
What has been your lived experience of diet/judgement culture?
By the time I was 16, I’d tried the Atkins diet, weight-watchers, slimming world… I don’t remember a life without diet culture. I don’t remember (before recent months) looking in the mirror and being happy or proud of who I was looking at. I wanted to be slimmer… more toned… fewer freckles… fewer stretchmarks… fuller smile… straighter teeth…
Weight was always a huge part of how I perceived myself. It was also a huge part of how I believed other people perceived me. High school is rife with immature groups of people that gain their confidence by pointing out the non-conformers, the differences. It was convenient for them that I was larger than my friends, not by much, but nevertheless… an easy target.
I’ve internalised that voice and projected it loudly for many years, believing that every look was one of judgement, pity or concern. It’s been really tough and I really hope that I can use my experiences, my sympathy, and my empathy to help other people with this battle.
Body positive / acceptance / neutrality etc. etc...
I love being positive and quite often I find it easier to be positive for other people, to encourage and motivate… it’s probably the teacher in me. Acceptance is also really natural to me… maybe that’s the disabled, nerdy lesbian in me that hates seeing people ostracised or discriminated against.
Despite all of that, it’s so difficult to offer that same support and compassion to yourself and your own situation. Most positive places I’d looked at (different facebook groups, online forums and websites) didn’t really have a method of ‘how to’ be kind to yourself. It was just ‘try taking your own advice’ or ‘give yourself a break’… that’s what I’ve loved about Nutriri, it takes the naturally positive person in me and gives her the tools to support herself aswell as others.
What made you decide to facilitate for Nutriri?
I tried it.
It’s as simple as that.
I was a customer before I was a facilitator. I recognised Nutriri’s aims and I thought that their passions aligned with mine. I thought they might be able to offer me a way to be kinder to myself… and they did! Then, I loved it so much, I wanted to work out a way that I could support other people to access the same thing I did.
There are so many people – of all ages, shapes, size, ethnicity, religion, sexuality etc – that struggle to be proud of who they are and what they have accomplished. Who wouldn’t want to be part of a voice that changes that? Nutriri speaks to people who haven’t quite got their voice yet… or to the people who have a negative voice that drowns out the positive one…